活著便快樂麼 某某暗戀我 應該笑麼
事實上我亦想過 接受更加好過
不錯 尚有幾個話很愛慕我
便有需要扮出雀躍麼 潛在的陰影未過
永遠孤單也不怕 是否使你驚訝
你到底有什麼好 逼得我念掛
路過的 幾多位都不算差
全城朋友妒忌著我嗎 突然陌生化
我為何流下眼淚 懂嗎（清楚嗎）
妒忌著我什麼 說會愛寵我 亂講也可
沒動力去認知我 卻話最喜歡我
戀愛 為了使晚上可抱著過
為刺激與示威見太多 我愛的偏偏避我
你已經娶了她嗎 掉得走記憶嗎
但我始終放不低 偏執有罪嗎
受了傷 傷口死不肯結疤
仍然迷信 終於等到她 遭你的欺詐
我仍然能被妒忌 真的嗎
saw these lyrics on mud's xanga... can help it ... just that almost every sentence applies.
the pink highlighted bit... exactly what was going thru my mind that night.
aiii... heard too many too many bad stuff about u.
do u actually know how many ppl hate u?
we can never be together. i dun even know if we could be friends...
i admit. i had fun the other day n there were some nice moments.
but i cant even trust those moments... cos i cant even be sure that u werent acting.
was everything u said every move u made... all part of ur plan?
i want the truth dammit ><
u know ... i wasnt really drunk that night
i pretended to be more drunk than i really was.
i knew what i was doing.
i just couldnt remember exactly what i said...
n thats just due to my bad memory... nothing to do with alcohol...
in fact, i cant even remember what i had for breakfast this morning...
suen ba lah... it'll never work out.
that first phone call ... u sounded exactly like him EXACTLY lor.
expression, tone, everything! i thought HE called!
my heart skipped a beat ...
i cant control myself... n the feelings i still hv for him.
thats y i agreed to come out.
i know i should forget about him ... but how can i ?
when i'd once said that id love him forever... how can i forget him?! ever.
n u ... aiii... y do u hv to be so similar to him
soooo many things... the way u talk n act ... remind me of him
even ur bdays r only two days apart. (but he is much beta looking.. muahahaha))
... or maybe its just me?
do i just miss him too much ... n projecting it all on to u?
** ho farn ar....><" the chinese words wouldnt show up properly!
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